Hmm What Ever Did I Do?

OK ok so I know am not always the most sensible person and yes I am definitely not the most brainy in the box either but I do know when am been done a wrong one. Its funny to think that as I sit writing this am getting wonderfully unnerved as two folk field enjoyment back in forth uncaring in front of me. On top of that I have someone else I care about who seems to be pulling away from me in a time when they, as far as I can see, should be letting lend as much support as I can.

I will never for the life of me understand feelings. WHY WHY WHY do I even have the darn things. I used to get along quite happily with folk thinking that I was cold and uncaring and heartless but now its all different. 

 

My only hope at this moment as far as I can see would be for me to just be cold heartless and uncaring as no one else seems to want to think on how I am dealing with stuff just on what pressures they are under.

 

 

What on earth am I supposed to do?

Aint life a bitch!!

It's odd to think that something can be so close but you dont realise it till it is way to late. The path i face has a great deal of heartache and sorrow with no clear end in sight. The choice has to be made as to what the next step will be but as for who will be the first to make it on that i am not sure. At this point all i can say for certain is that I have to sit here and watch as all around me make passes and fain over each other neglecting to remember that I am even sitting in the same room. I have no clue what i should do or even if i should say something but hey one thing is for sure. What ever is due for coming up for me, it most certainly aint gonna be pretty.

XX