A Rather Large Heart 2 Heart

Its late and i probably really should be asleep and yet all i can think of is you. I cant believe the pain you have been through and am so scared of opening up and making it oh so much worse.

I want to say that:

Your oh so special to me and I just wish that you could see just how special you are to me.

I wish you where here beside me, to guide me and show me the way.

To help me see the good that's in me.

To love the sweet little way that you say my name and the lingering look i dream you would give me in the morning.

 

I saved the conversation that we had the night you said those magic words i longed to hear. I just hope they weren't said to just cheer me up and that its really what you feel. From all the pain you have been through and i just don't want to be felt like i should be let in and then to do something to make any of it worse.

Your the one and only guy i think of and the one and only one i want near me.

Even if you read this, I'm still scared. Terrified even.

Would love to call you my other half but whose to say that what you want. For all i could think you are just being friendly,

 

Well the result will come when it leaks out as all my feelings do.

 

Honey your so so so special, and i do believe i love you.

 

 

Queerlad

 

xoxoxoxox

What a night!!

Well tonight goes to show what the power of speech can do, You should have seen how happy my babes was. am so glad he he is getting to shine like he should. mwah mwah mwah.

The Final Heart String Pulled!!

 

Heres to us one more toast and then well pay the bill
Deep inside both of us can feel the autumn chill
Birds of passage, you and me
We fly instinctively
When the summers over and the dark clouds hide the sun
Neither you nor Im to blame when all is said and done

 

In our lives we have walked some strange and lonely treks
Slightly worn but dignified and not too old for sex
Were still striving for the sky
No taste for humble pie
Thanks for all your generous love and thanks for all the fun
Neither you nor Im to blame when all is said and done

 

Its so strange when youre down and lying on the floor
How you rise, shake your head, get up and ask for more
Clear-headed and open-eyed
With nothing left untried
Standing calmly at the crossroads,no desire to run
Theres no hurry any more when all is said and done

 

Standing calmly at the crossroads,no desire to run
Theres no hurry any more when all is said and done

Wonders If Someone Will ….

f you change your mind, Im the first in line
Honey Im still free
Take a chance on me
If you need me, let me know, gonna be around
If youve got no place to go, if youre feeling down
If youre all alone when the pretty birds have flown
Honey Im still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best and it aint no lie
If you put me to the test, if you let me try
Take a chance on me
(thats all I ask of you honey)
Take a chance on me
We can go dancing, we can go walking, as long as were together
Listen to some music, maybe just talking, get to know you better
cos you know Ive got
So much that I wanna do, when I dream Im alone with you
Its magic
You want me to leave it there, afraid of a love affair
But I think you know
That I cant let go
If you change your mind, Im the first in line
Honey Im still free
Take a chance on me
If you need me, let me know, gonna be around
If youve got no place to go, if youre feeling down
If youre all alone when the pretty birds have flown
Honey Im still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best and it aint no lie
If you put me to the test, if you let me try
Take a chance on me
(come on, give me a break will you? )
Take a chance on me
Oh you can take your time baby, Im in no hurry, know Im gonna get you
You dont wanna hurt me, baby dont worry, I aint gonna let you
Let me tell you now
My love is strong enough to last when things are rough
Its magic
You say that I waste my time but I cant get you off my mind
No I cant let go
cos I love you so
If you change your mind, Im the first in line
Honey Im still free
Take a chance on me
If you need me, let me know, gonna be around
If youve got no place to go, if youre feeling down
If youre all alone when the pretty birds have flown
Honey Im still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best, baby cant you see
Gotta put me to the test, take a chance on me
(take a chance, take a chance, take a chance on me)
Ba ba ba ba baa, ba ba ba ba baa
Honey Im still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best, baby cant you see
Gotta put me to the test, take a chance on me
(take a chance, take a chance, take a chance on me)
Ba ba ba ba baa, ba ba ba ba baa ba-ba
Honey Im still free
Take a chance on me

The Winner Doesnt Take It All !!!

I dont wanna talk
About the things weve gone through
Though its hurting me
Now its history
Ive played all my cards
And thats what youve done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play
The winner takes it all
The loser standing small
Beside the victory
Thats her destiny
I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking Id be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules
The gods may throw a dice
Their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear
The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
Its simple and its plain
Why should I complain.
But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say
Rules must be obeyed
The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all
I dont wanna talk
If it makes you feel sad
And I understand
Youve come to shake my hand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self-confidence
But you see
The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all......

State of affairs

Hmm so what do you do when your scared to even talk and tell someone all the nice kind things you want to. I wish you were here for me to pull close and that you feel save and know that your cared and wanted for.

 

I have no idea what words to use or why i cant say this to you. What do i do?

 

I DONT KNOW.

 

I want to close my heart and bit want any pain but its with me in abondance.

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Homo Is Back and may i Say he LIKES SOMEONE

Howdy readers i missed you all and am sorry for not getting back to you sooner. Now as you can tell things from my earlier post have moved on and wee me is now interested in someone, and well its a rough road for it but i hope it will have a happier ending than what i normally get.

 

Twitter love for me is now in full swing and so far i have sang, kissed, and spanked some on it. You know who you are. want to follow me on it

 

http://www.twitter.co.uk/queerbunni

and see what's a happening in almost real time.

 

Sometimes i wish that i could freeze the picture.

And save it from the funny drifts of time.

Slipping through my fingers.

 

And to the guy i like, he knows who he is. Am here when you need me. I promise you that.

 

Queerbunni

And What Do You Do?

So you start talking to someone. It goes really well and you appear to be getting along. Then you find out something that rocks your boat and have no idea how to steady it again. To let people in is a big deal but to process some odd information is really a strange issue.

Over the years I have left myself open to and choosing a path that is hard up and long in the tooth for ever working out.

In this day and age we connect and work with those that we seem to be connected to and can work from. In recent times i have met such a person and i have to date no idea what i am supposed to do. Growing up is nothing like the way it is described to you as when your a kid.

Your pushed to pick lessons and find dreams to take you forward as if tats all your ever going to be interested in. The only thing that is never taken in to account is the heart itself,

Throughout history its well documented that people have made a lot of wrong choices based on what the feel and their heart. I however do not appear to learn form my own mistakes. There is a guy that i like who is at the moment is unobtainable and reachable by me. I only hope that one day this will help me work past me doing this.  

To those that are lying in the same sediment of creations remember this. The one thing that we revolve around on this is that we always believe that we are alone. We are not and there is a sizeable area of us and that we can help each other out. 

My apologies to the people who are unhappy that I have wrote this. But it is just my own feelings and emotions.

 

Queerlad xx

Welcome Back TO MEEEEE!!

So my fellow blog readers. And welcome back to me. It has been a while, a little over a year apprently and its time I started to keep up to date with my obligations. So here we go and welcome to the world.

 

And by the way if you have a chance to see any comedian then make sure you find a way to see the one and only

David Gorman

The guy although a comical genius does have a few twirks* that he has that make him a comical and funny man

And please do leave him a comment about his site or the page. BUT IF YOU SEE THE GOOGLEWACK show then you will know what you shouldn't mention.

 

Good Luck to you all.

 

*TWIRKS – A mixture of quirks and tweaks and quirks.

Hmm What Ever Did I Do?

OK ok so I know am not always the most sensible person and yes I am definitely not the most brainy in the box either but I do know when am been done a wrong one. Its funny to think that as I sit writing this am getting wonderfully unnerved as two folk field enjoyment back in forth uncaring in front of me. On top of that I have someone else I care about who seems to be pulling away from me in a time when they, as far as I can see, should be letting lend as much support as I can.

I will never for the life of me understand feelings. WHY WHY WHY do I even have the darn things. I used to get along quite happily with folk thinking that I was cold and uncaring and heartless but now its all different. 

 

My only hope at this moment as far as I can see would be for me to just be cold heartless and uncaring as no one else seems to want to think on how I am dealing with stuff just on what pressures they are under.

 

 

What on earth am I supposed to do?

Aint life a bitch!!

It's odd to think that something can be so close but you dont realise it till it is way to late. The path i face has a great deal of heartache and sorrow with no clear end in sight. The choice has to be made as to what the next step will be but as for who will be the first to make it on that i am not sure. At this point all i can say for certain is that I have to sit here and watch as all around me make passes and fain over each other neglecting to remember that I am even sitting in the same room. I have no clue what i should do or even if i should say something but hey one thing is for sure. What ever is due for coming up for me, it most certainly aint gonna be pretty.

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A whole New SHOW

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Drop me a line and get involved at sexysuperman@gmail.com.

Queerlad xx

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One Month On

Yes im still going and yes i have been very lazy about this so its time for an update. So here is the update show and all you guys can come and join me as we recap the past month and see whats been going on.

Happy New Year and welcome Back!!

Its been a while since i have posted anything so here is an update. Not a great show so not expecting a lot to even download or even listen all the way through. I Promise that i will start getting more frequent with these.


Queerlad xxx

PUBLISHED

Finally we have publishing back so get ready for my show to kick start a new run again. I hope you will all enjoy it and that you can let me know how you think the show is going.

Queerlad.
www.queerlad.co.uk

Anyone still here?

Ok, ok i know it has been a while since i posted even one letter but i ssem to be having some issues with my podcasts new home and seeing as i try to keep this and the podcast running along the same lines seems one stops then they both do. Hopefully all will be back up and running again soon and you guys can get back on the band waggon about leting me know how screed up i am. Drop me a line any time you guys want to say hi.

Queerlad

Queerlad Returns +1

The lad returns and he is not alone. From Queerland we welcome to the queercasting community a new voice so lets all give him a huge happy queer welcome.