It's odd to think that something can be so close but you dont realise it till it is way to late. The path i face has a great deal of heartache and sorrow with no clear end in sight. The choice has to be made as to what the next step will be but as for who will be the first to make it on that i am not sure. At this point all i can say for certain is that I have to sit here and watch as all around me make passes and fain over each other neglecting to remember that I am even sitting in the same room. I have no clue what i should do or even if i should say something but hey one thing is for sure. What ever is due for coming up for me, it most certainly aint gonna be pretty.